the other side of me

jika kata tak mampu lagi mendefinisikan rasa dan peristiwa

maka aku aku akan diam sepuluh ribu bahasa,

dan dalam diam akan terpatri kenangan tentang semua.

bilamana semua mulai memburam dan maya

maka aku akan memejamkan mata dan mempertajam indra,

supaya aku tetap bisa memilah yang nyata dari yang maya

ketika kewajiban untuk memilih tiba

maka seperti biasanya, aku akan mati rasa,

karena aku dikacaukan oleh berbagai pilihan yang ada

dan lebih dari semua dan segala,

aku hanya ingin bahagia

the light conversation we had

a pack of cigarettes,
a glass of iced cappucinno,
one cheese & beef sandwich,
a bottle of mineral water,
and a set of table in the corner,
at Cheers.
at 7 pm till drop.


we sat.
we glanced at each other.
we laughed.
we had jokes.
we shared stories.
we planned something.
we conversed.


simply, happily, enjoyably, lightly, joyfully, & peacefully.

I do NOT require a sky full of bright twinkling stars,
flowers,
expensive beverages & meals,
luxurious spots,
any romantic musics,
or another fucking bullshit things.


that conversation......
was all that I needed,
was all that I wanted for so long,
was all that I dreamed about,
was really more than enough,
was huge,
meant a lot....



it wasn't too much to ask, ain't it ?  :)

 

great men wif such elusive thoughts

Pernah gga ngerasa kalo dunia begitu besar & kita begitu kecil?
Banyak bgt hal-hal yg kita gga tau.
I've felt that (again) a few hours ago gara-gara blajar buat mata kul Sejarah Pemikiran Modern.
It's d worst feeling ever, at least for me.

Itu mata kul ttg positivism, dogmatism, idealism, bla bla bla yg sama skali gga bikin tertarik buat baca apalgi mahamin !
That's why I chose to stop reading that stuff.
Tapi oh tapi, paling gga jadi mikir juga kalo ternyata banyak banget hal yg aku gga tau, sadly.
Jadi mikir juga kalo orang-orang sebangsa Auguste Comte, Hegel, Karl Marx, etc luar biasa brilian.
Jadi minder karna orang-orang jaman dulu bisa create pemikiran yg luar biasa sangar which i dont understand at all.
Jadi malu karna baru ngeh kalo aku gga pernah mikir hal-hal yg bermutu.

But, still, mereka-mereka sukses bikin pusing & pesimis bisa kerjain test besok.
Jadi, walo mereka hebat, they still suck. hahaha.

Here are those guys with their elusive thought !!

starting point

sometimes,
things are better to be written rather than spoken.